Uee is so perfect! If I had a body like hers…I’d be extremely happy (I’m taller than her though….).
I don’t particularly like posting my weight or even telling people what how much I weigh. Coming from last week, I lost 3lbs! I’ve been eating like I normally do and even had a slice of cake earlier in the week (I know…bad bad bad but it looked good). Those Japanese diet pills seem to be working! I hate how much my weight fluctuates for no reason so I could easily gain in back in 2 hours…for no reason at all.
Health wise, I feel better but I have had a constant headache for a week, my pupils will be dilated for no reason, and stress/anxiety is killing me. So many things have been going wrong (can’t find a job, in debt, no more unemployment, can’t go back to school cause its expense and I was only 8 classes away from graduating, etc etc). It’s really annoying. I know other people have it harder than what I’m going through and I shouldn’t be complaining but…it’s really getting on my nerves.
Kinda where I want to be
She has a really pretty face…I need a pretty face. Also, I know I reblog/post a lot of food. Hahaha it’s only cause I’m hungry!
Yeup…almost been on this diet for 3 weeks. Yesterday, day 19, I practically exercised the whole day again. I nearly passed out. I was like, “Why is it gettin dark?! Oh shoot! Keep…eyes…open!” I stayed under 600 cals yesterday and downed green tea like it was going out of style. Today, day 20, I spent much of the day with my mom at her doctors appointment and shopping for stuff for the family reunion this weekend. I made bolognese pasta (after I left my wine to cook with in the store) and…I ate about 2 small bowls plus a few bites. Ugh! I probably downed about 800 cals but less than a 1000. I don’t know how many cals are in bolognese so I am just guessing as I used fresh ingredients, no wine, and 90/10 beef. I feel like a fat piggie-cow. I wasn’t going to exercise today to give my body a rest but…I couldn’t and I exercised. My muscles are hurting but beauty is pain. Tomorrow is weight-in and I feel like I probably didn’t lose any weight this week. I don’t know why but that’s how I feel. I will be fasting for the next 2 days or so to slim down further and exercise a whole lot!
He/She is soooo cute!! I want one! sweetlittlekitties.tumblr.com
The beautiful Chaerin aka CL of 2NE1
Where I kinda want to be
doing it now!
Yesterday was day 17. I was out of energy and felt like crap but I still managed to exercise and eat under 700 calories. Today is day 18. I have been practically exercising the whole day while in the living room watching tv. I had 50 cal yogurt and 90 cal juice for breakfast, snack size popcorn at 120 cals for lunch, and made this uber awesome dinner featuring shrimp and salad totaling 150 cals!
I don’t understand why people say that you need to eat 1200 calories or something like that. 150 calories is a lot of food. I made the shrimp buy sauteing them in a pan with non stick spray, added in 1/8 cup of water, and seasoned with adobo seasoning, jerk seasoning, and basil. I topped it off with just a tiny sprinkle of montz (mozzarella cheese). It was the perfect blend between sweet, spicy, and salt. Of course almost after every bite, I drank water. See…150 cals really does fill you up. I really do want to eat a hamburger and some fries or even some Chinese food but…I know I can’t.
Where I kinda want to be
I have jury duty in the morning and I’m excited about it!
pfft…I’m kinda tired of being on a diet but every time I look at myself in the mirror, I see blubber and just nasty. SO! I keep going! I don’t remember much of yesterday. All I know is that I screwed up dinner so I ended up just eating cabbage that I had made. I danced pretty much all day yesterday as well. Today, I didn’t eat til I had a salad at around 3 and it had about 150 cals in it. I made dinner and I ate too much of it. I had a salad, a few bites of cabbage, some peas, and turkey. Waaaay too much. I am going to guess I had almost 1000 cals today. I am such a fat pig. I danced for maybe 15 mins today and rode my bike for 20. That’s nowhere near enough. Rest assured I will be getting back on the bike before the night is over and burning additional calories. I feel like I am going to slip up on my diet and I don’t want to. I am 8lbs away from losing 20lbs and 15 lbs away from my mini goal weight. I would love to be at my mini goal weight by next Saturday! I constantly have to look at thinpo or watch videos about kpop idols to keep motivated. I just want people to tell me I am pretty and not the opposite. I want to look good in what I wear. I see these “body positive” blogs on here showing pictures of overweight people and they look good. I don’t look good; I’m not curvy at all…well…what curvy is supposed to be anyway (curvy does not equal fat but thats what people say). It’s soo hard to be confident with myself when I know its not accepted in society. That is why…I must lose weight at all cost!
Just took 4 laxative tablets. Hope they work soon. I hate how they make me mega huge but as long as the get the job done. Time to go exercise some more.
Well…I had began to feel really ill like I was going to die during the nights so yesterday, I decided I would eat 3 small meals a day; all under 200 cals of course! I know I stayed well under 800 cals yesterday and today, I had approx 700 cals! For breakfast, I had 3 strips of turkey bacon (75 cals). For lunch, I had this awesome salad!
It was a veggie pattie (70 cals), salad (15 cals), and instead of dressing, I used salsa (30 cals). For dinner, I had a pork chop (200 cals), sweet potato (100 cals), and mustard greens (12 cals). That brings the daily total for today to….502 calories! Whooooo!! Now, my trick to eating anything is to NOT eat everything on my plate. Por ejemplo (for example), I didn’t eat all the sweet potato, greens, or pork chop! I dunno how many calories that saved me but hey…any little bit helps I guess. Eating “more” has helped with my energy level! I am going to go dance some more now! You know what tomorrow is….WEIGH IN DAY! DUN DUN DUUUUNNNN!!
Where I kinda want to be (yeah…I know she is “fat” but if only you knew where I was coming from)
I’ve been workin my butt off and haven’t heard them yet! UGH!
Weighed in today and didn’t lose a pound. I’ve been starving and workin my butt off for nothing. I should have at least lost 8lbs…all the calories I burned. WTF! Why is that? Why is it that I’m on a VLCD and exercise like I’m supposed to and NOT lose weight?! Someone please let me know. Punishment is in order! No more Coke Zero’s and exercise 2 hours on bike! I’m so mad. I can’t continue being a fatty like I am now. Granted I don’t want to be incredibly skinny, I want to be appealing. I just watched taboo on the national geographic channel and it was about looks. Good Looking people do better in this world. Maybe that is why even though I am qualified for a job, I don’t get it. I’m uber upset so I’m going to go sip some apple cider vinegar and probably only drink apple cider vinegar for the next few days.
Where I kinda want to be
Ima go dance now….
Hey hey I'm The Great One...Courtini! I'm on a whole weight loss binge right now; but I'm not solely a weight loss blog. I reblog/post stuff that interest me and occasionally, I'll make blog post about my weight, my life, maybe pictures, my opinions, pop culture, etc. Talk to me yah!
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