Ugh! I can’t believe I’ve been on a diet for 2 freakin months and haven’t lost a significant amount of weight! I’m losing it but very slowly it seems like and I hate it. i hate how my weight just doesn’t want to seem to come off quick enough. I also hate all the saggy fat rolls and i find as i lose more, my body gets…uglier. i can see where abs are supposed to be…soooo…i’m getting somewhere i guess.
Anywhoo…so yesterday I spent the day with my aunt (she had a few doctors appointments down town since she is recovering). Good news is…she’s back to her old self again which is great. Bad news…we went to the grocery store after her appointment right and a cute guy (annd I mean he was fiiiiiine) walked by so I said out loud something like how extremely cute he was. Then a few moment later, he came down our isle. I pushed my aunt so she could see him and she basically tells me no hahahaha. He was soo cute. I did make eye contact with him. After we got back out to the car, we started talking and I basically had to tell her why I didn’t talk to him (I had to explain to my mom too when I got home). I’m shy and insecure with how I look. If i lose a bit more weight and become prettier, maybe…just maybe I will have enough courage to go up to a guy and talk to him. i want to get married and have kids (i’m graduating with my second degree in march…3 more classes to go) and i’m getting pretty up there. Anyway, in regards to university, I’m ready to go back!!! i love learning!!
where i kinda want to be