Isn’t this the truth? yeup.
Isn’t this the truth? yeup.
Here it is: my final progress picture! This is after 12 weeks of Jillian Michaels Body Revolution and relatively clean eating! I’m 5’5” and 148.6 pounds as of this morning. The funny thing is, I was exactly 148.6 when I started the program back in March. Evidently, I lost 10 pounds of fat and gained 10 pounds of muscle, haha! I dropped 1 inch from my waist, 2 inches from my hips, and a combined 3 inches from my thighs. It’s been a long road, and I still have a lot of work to do before I’m 100% satisfied, but I sure am happy to be where I’m at now :)
Fuck I miss food
Still crying. I’ve been crying all morning. Funny thing is it was pouring while I was crying so it was like the sky was crying with me. People knew something is wrong with me so that were upset too. I just want a hug and for someone to hold me while I cry. Mary Mack did that today but…it wasn’t enough. I’m still hurting…in pain and agony.
Yeaah yeeah “there are plenty more fish in the sea” but when those fish keep breakin my heart…ya tu sabe. Someone said, “you’re too pretty to be crying” and then someone said, “he didn’t deserve you.” All these were coming from people I’ve only know 3 months (work). It messes it up for the next one. Don’t trust anyone…don’t let them in. My wall is being rebuilt and this time its higher and stronger.
Will someone ever love me as much as I would love them? That’s the question that I’m trying to figure out. Yeeah…still crying.
He and I broke up, He sent the text while at work and I’ve been crying ever since. I’m such a fool for believing in people again…that I wouldn’t get my heart broken. Boy, was I wrong. I hate the world soo much right now and I hate my life right now. I want to run away and not come back. I’m not good enough for anyone. What’s wrong with me? I’ve been crying all day. I thought I could be with him always. I thought all the stuff he was saying before this was true. My feelings were real. It’s always one sided,
From now on, my heart is as black as night and as cold as ice. It’s broken…therefore the shards are smaller, Good luck trying to put it back together.
I let someone feel my ribs today. They poked at em and it hurt! Hahaha Oh well!! Off work tomorrow! Finally…a day off!! I’m excited to go to Six Flags with the novio!!
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